Back on the Wagon

I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack! I've blown off project me for long enough. since my last post, i've been to paris, france, where i walked daily, for miles! I proved to myself I can still do it. even knowing that, i got back, worked out regularly for a week, and then stopped again.

no more. MUST workout regularly. just found out i'm to stand in a wedding on july 11, for my 23 year old nephew. i refuse to show up at this wedding obese. of course, no sooner did i make that decision before i went and chowed on a 1/3 pint of ben & jerrys. poison.

I had been promising my dog i'd take her for a walk; hadn't done it in at least a month. poor pooch, she just loves to walk. not walking makes her crazy. and so, today, i finally did it. i made good on my promise. just 2.13 miles of a light run, walk. Completed it in about 38 minutes and burned about 400 calories. poor dog is worn out. and i'm pumped full of lovely endorphins. why don't i do this regularly?

during my walk i had an epiphany. i was contemplating the many reasons i obsess about food, and believe me when i tell you there are plenty! and i caught myself thinking, "i love food!" Love? HA! it's a love-hate relationship. reality is, food hates me. well, not food itself, obviously. but the fact of the matter is that all of my compulsive eating (and let's be brutally honest, here, that's really what it is, a COMPULSION) is slowly killing me. I'm unhealthy, obese, and I hate how I look. I hate mirrors. and I hate shopping for clothes. I have to get the compulsion under control. I have to stop obsessing about food.

I took measurements today. they're sad. seriously. but i'm putting it out there in the hopes that someone will hold me accountable. clearly I haven't had much success doing that.

so, here we go.

age: 39 yrs old
height: 5'2
weight: 224 lbs
bust: 45 inches
stomach: 45 inches
hips: 53 inches
arms: 14 inches
thighs: 26 inches

Today's workout: 2.13 miles, 38 minutes, 448 calories burned.

Today's cons:
Pasta (whole wheat)
B&J ice cream (1/3 pint)

Today's pros:
Worked out!

Countdown to wedding:
48 days